Saturday, April 30, 2005
Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I'm wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't
Care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Nothing's gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this
Right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
It's always like this,
always have.
but this tyme.
it just hurts more then it
should.
i'll try to do
what you told me last night.
if it doesn't work;
i guess it shows.
and once again,
thanks for everything.
esp for the call.
<3
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:03 PM
Friday, April 29, 2005
I don't want to know the lover at my door
Is just another heartache on my list
i'm so tired.
i still am.
after like 7hrs of sleep.
maybe it's the dread of living
that makes me wanna curl up and die.
>.<
anws.
i dug up my
advance biology
book fer Boon.
LOL.
Don't ask me why I have that book in the
first place.
Kyer's mad at me.
Cause I was rambling to her
bout the complexity of the human
life and that it's good to stay a dog,
of which i am not confident that she actually
knows she's one cause she acts like
a barking cat.
i'm on my way doing up
min's blog.
trying to make photoshop
work with me.
hehs.
it'd be a skater theme.
((:
i hate mosqitoe bites.
i want to PIAK them.
i need to go back to sch.
i want to go back to sch.
*sighs sighs*
Jaffe you'd better
be a nice nice mugging partner.
Or
i'll shave off whatever fur you
have left on ur head.
oh!
i caught a pretty pink
dragonfly.
let it go this morning.
it's really beautiful.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 12:14 PM
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
i don't like smelly toilets.
*pinches nose*
i like the sotong head from
Old Chang Kee.
((:
-poke poke-
pretty bald lady.
You should really
take into consideration
what my dad said.
Afterall, you might be a renowned
writer someday.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 10:50 PM
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
i'm going to cough out a furball.
*cough*
Okay.
Make that a dozen.
)):
I see grey grey grey black.
Obviously, things haven't been
going as smoothly as it should.
Whywhywhywhy ?!
*pulls hair out*
Yesterday was another fcked up
pissy shitified day.
OMFG.
I want to sprout wings and flutter
off to some where.
My tag-board has become from
a nusery-ryhme scribble board
to lunch/dinner menu ? !
*faints*
Many thanks to Jaffe and
Josh.
aights.
i'm going to one corner and pout.
so sick and tired of all these.
Cried like fuck into the phone
with min yest.
psh.
sorry babe.
i just couldn't help it.
*sighs.
you were on my mind 24/7,
even when i'm down,
one word from you.
made me feel so flyyy.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 3:46 PM
Sunday, April 24, 2005
i hate my dad.
i hate my mum.
i wish they would just leave me
alone and shut the fuck up.
everything's going wrong.
i hate this feeling.
poured out to mushroom just now.
i love that girl to bits.
she always makes me happy.
(:
i wish wish it'd all be better.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 9:07 PM
Saturday, April 23, 2005
I'M SO HAPPY.
YESTERDAY I SAW MY MUSHROOM.
YAYYYY ! ! !
Pls take note.
I like MY mushroom.
She's MY mushroom.
I don't like ppl bullying MY mushroom.
I don't like MY mushroom to be sad.
AND.
I named my mushroom, mushroom
because I want to her to be MY mushroom.
SO PLEASE DON'T CHANGE HER NAME OKAY ? !
How irritating.
>.<
MUSHROOM IS THE OFFICIAL NAME.
TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT.
RAHHHHH !
Okay, anws.
I was the happiest I've been since i don't know when.
YAYYY.
((:
Met new ppl !
Jocelyn (?), P.J, Sean(?), Dwyane (?) and a few more others
of which I really forgot their name.
I think I talk too much to strangers.
HAHAHAA.
But I don't care really.
With reference to min's blog entry.
I FEEL FUCKING SORRY FOR HIM*.
(min knows who's him*.)
*sigh x 100000*
oh!
P.J's really sweet.
But he keeps to himself.
and he looks like john.
))):
Borrowed P.J's tie.
LMAO.
Don't kill me min.
I'm a possessive log.
and i like mushrooms to stay
as mushrooms.
esp MY mushroom.
but shitake mushroom will do fine too.
hehehehe.
LOVE !
bye bye.
i love my mushroom.
*hugs*
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:22 PM
Friday, April 22, 2005
i'm going to meet min after this.
anws.
i had a series of nightmares.
))))))):
ihatehatehatehate.
RAHHHHH.
i'm being nice today.
so i'm going to kiss everyone.
YAYYY!
uhms.
i need to pee-pee.
bye bye! (:
that call from you;
made all the nightmares
go awayy.
thanks. (:
*hugs
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 2:21 PM
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
this is what jaffe msged
me after i asked him if he had any
songs from the killers.
( thee reply )
comments are warmly welcomed.
((:
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 3:23 PM
Monday, April 18, 2005
recap for the days i've missed
blogging.
aights.
i've been pretty junked.
)):
Least I've figured out
what to do with my life i've reckon.
Jaffe's going to ns.
HAHAHA.
Sorry i had to do that.
(((:
Not much contact with my dearies.
*frowns.
I'm sick of ppl becoming outrageously
B I M B O T I C after they've
gotten themselves enrolled into
some jc.
WTH's wrong with you ?!
No names shall be mentioned.
I mean if you're gonna have a bf and have
him non-existant in your stupid puny life
then might as well save him the torment
and let him go.
he deserves much better then
this.
this i can say it without regrets.
perhaps it's because you haven gotten
your pretty lil heart broken yet.
reasons why you can't feel how much
love can hurt yet.
reminscing on the past good tymes no
doubt you've been there for me.
but your behaviour have totally gone off
limits aye babe?
i'm telling you this straight into your
face that it's gonna kill you one day.
from babe to bitch.
get my point.
i don't know if you still actually
read this blog or you're too caught up
playing lil princess in your fairytale world.
well, i believe in karma,
what goes around comes around.
what goes up must come down.
that is so true.
i hope you get this settled into
that head of yours.
harsh as those words might seem.
i truely do mean it for your own good.
oh btw.
i feel like walking out of my
house over to my neighbour's and
s l a p p i n g his sickening
face cause his bloody wretched alarm clock
happens to have gone haywire.
and he refuses to do anything about it.
DIE YOU BEEPING THING DIE !
>)):
maybe someday you'll see;
maybe someday we'll be.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 3:36 PM
Friday, April 15, 2005
i'm tired.
i'm sick.
my parents should just leave me alone.
i'm turning to food for comfort.
)):
i miss min.
ALOT ALOT.
i miss janelle too.
went out with her that day.
that girl rocks lah.
my eyes are closing.
but all i see is you.
painfully these feelings stay.
come whatever may.
gunbound-ed today with patch, burn, shadow.
nice ppl.
((:
life's ill-treating me horridly.
the nice nice ppl are well,
reo, alex, liang and my da-jies.
hurhur.
*hugs*
haven't talked to le'le fer so long!
RAHHHHHH!
uhms.
well.
*sighs*
so many many tings going
on through my mind.
oh i made a new friend!
davis.
st. andrews.
HAHAHA.
((:
aights.
night night ppl.
<3
tsked.
i'm still having a major headache
over the missing songs.
no sh!t.
))):
oh sweet jesus.
pls make my life easier
to live; happier each day.
i wish he'd understand too.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 2:38 AM
Saturday, April 09, 2005
why do couples count the number of days
they've been tgt ?
plain weird.
it's like a drag or something.
pffffft.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 10:51 PM
i didn't do what i did this morning.
no, i didn't i swear.
)):
my heart went bang bang bang,
anws.
things have been okay.
seen the rainbow and the rain.
seen more then i should.
but thens.
it's alright.
(:
i learn form mistakes.
((:
basically.
life's is mono.
like really mono.
going to pick anne
up soon.
when she calls.
Of which she is supposed to.
I MISS HER FUCK LOADS.
gotta know alex better.
nice guy really.
hmmms.
yeah.
he cooks gooood.
HEH.
<3
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 4:42 PM
Thursday, April 07, 2005
i'm living a nightmare rollercoaster ride.
nothing goes right for me.
everything's grey.
solem.
dull.
dead.
probably.
it was never meant to be.
guess it was so.
perhaps.
i'm gonna be selfish here.
):
i miss all my besties.
they are like all gone.
haven seen all off them.
esp joyce.
they're like all gone.
)))):
yes, janelle baby.
i'll be there.
till then.
<333.
uhms.
the kinky stuff okay?!
LMAO.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 2:37 AM
Monday, April 04, 2005
it's because of you that i breath
i talked to le'le last night !
Finally, he's back from camp.
YAYYY ! ! !
<3
hmmms.
He's really quiet i must say. (yet again)
EXTREMELY rather.
(but i don't really care ! (;)
Technically.
The conversation was going off fine.
That's after he started to tease the hell outta me.
Like the way Jaffe does.
Hmms.
Maybe the better version of my
NA-NA-BOON's teasing.
It's so irritating OKAY ?!
RAHHHHH !
Evil person.
Oh yeah.
I got back at him too !
HEHS.
Right Le'le ? !
*nudge nudge*
him: Ehhs. Are you going to sleep soon ?
me: No, why ?
him: Not tired ah ? I want ter sleep alrd.
me: Oh. Ohkays. GO LAH ! GO ! PUT DOWN THE
PHONE.. GO LAH !
him Ehs ! Don't liddat lah ! WAHLAU !
me: What ? ! GO !.. HANG UP LAH ! !
him: -slience- (i swear he's about to kill me. ROFL)
HAHAHHAHAHS.
Yes.
That how the supposedly till one o'clock conversation
dragged on till one thirty.
> (:
Oh oh !
I didn't wake up on tyme to call him. )):
MY DAD DID THOU ! ((:
Gave me one instead.
BUT got his msg by then.
HA !
Waiting for Mr. Computer man aka Robin
to come and fix my com.
That man is a genius.
LA LA LA.
Okay.
ANYONE who can fix this dying com
of mine (of which my dad refuses to admit it's
dying) IS a genius.
I saw an PLASMA TV home theater
set on SALE at
Best Denki.
I'm so in love with it.
The projection and sound surround
system
is awesome.
Like wicked !
AND
I really hate the price thou.
It's outta of this world.
*sobs*
Anws,
Do bear with me, it's the results of nt
updating properly everyday.
I've yet to dial my tutor up.
SHUCKS !
I LOVE THE COACH FROM
BENT IT LIKE BECKHAM.
HE'S DROP DEAD GORGEOUS.
OMFG.
Le'le likes Keira Knightley.
HAHAHHA.
OKAY.
Mr Computer man is here !
I gotta run.
PSST.
WHY DOES ALL MY DARLING FRIENDS
GREET ME BY THE SLOGAN
HEY BITCH ? !
What's wrong with you people man ?!
*winks*
_
Min: YES ! I CAN ! ! OHKAY. DAMM THE CRAB. >((((:
Janelle: OH love ! Hmms. I'll take note of it.
I WILL TAKE ANYTHING THAT YOU BRING
BACK FOR ME. IF IT'S POSSIBLE. YOU CAN
MAIL THE SKATERS OVER THERE TO ME TOO ! ROFL !
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 4:18 PM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
i miss:
-) j a n e l l e
-) sleeping late.
-) waking late.
-) going out.
-) school.
-) my stupiddear friends. ((;
-) sleeping (?)
-) you*
my legs are cracking.
my aunt tips alot.
i like the nice nice people.
<3
psst.
Janelle baby.
I'm gonna pick you up.
Gimme gimme the flight
thingy info again aights ?
*H U G S*
Oh oh !
just did up my friendster blog.
Funny funny.
Been gunbound-ing with patch !
it's great.
she's really good.
(((:
i love my friends.
can't do without them.
boy.
i <3
been on my mind.
24/7.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 9:41 PM
